It is not a question of your environment, leader or those around you. To be swayed by such externals is easily done and often pointless in the grand scheme of life. It truly all comes down to one person: you.
What matters is that you become a brilliant beacon, shining with joy and happiness, and living your life with confidence and courage. If you shine with a radiant light, there can be no darkness in your life.
Peace and Love, Jim