Change The Energy. . .
Unlike your chosen spiritual community, your book club, or your friends, you don’t get to pick which of the company you keep in your family. You’re born into it and it’s yours until the moment you die. Some of us couldn’t imagine not speaking with our family every week while others are far removed from engaging them. It’s up to each of us the extent to which we want to interact with our family, and how we define it, but it’s a microcosm of society we can’t really avoid participating in, one way or another.
The moment we walk in the door we fall into the same patterns we were raised with, and ten minutes in are complaining that we don’t want to take out the trash in the same tone we did when we were surly teenagers.
This is the basic rule of what us Buddhists call karma: we have strongly engrained habitual ways of considering ourself, our loved ones, and the world around us, and these ideas propel us to do the same sort of thing over and over again, unless we cut through that particular pattern. In the long-term Buddhist logic we have been playing out the same patterns of passion, aggression and ignorance with various versions of our families for lifetimes. That said, you don’t need to believe in multiple lifetimes to know that when you’re complaining like a teenager to your dad, it’s because you used to complain like a teenager to your dad.
However, if you are sick of relating to your (negative, not-so-helpful) family patterns in the same old way, I invite you to recall the advice offered by one of my teachers: “Everything is predetermined…until now.” The next time you hop on the phone with a family member or see them in-person for the holidays, you have a unique opportunity to change the flow of business as usual.
You can show up for them, embodying mindfulness by deeply listening and becoming gently inquisitive with their experience, in an attempt to unearth a deeper layer of conversation than what you normally get to experience together. You can hold space for them to talk about what’s ultimately on their mind, without offering advice or judgment, and show your compassionate heart. If you’re stuck, quite frankly, just go somewhere new and try something different with them — eat a new food, go for a walk, anything that you have never done together before. There are a million ways to shift our family dynamics into new territory but we have to rouse ourselves out of our habitual mindset to do it.
Even if we do not get to see our family often we can reach out to them in ways that feel meaningful and continue to emphasize showing, as opposed to telling about, our experience of mindfulness and our basic goodness. By learning to start fresh, over and over again in coming back to the breath in our meditation practice, we are training to start fresh and drop our pre-conceived ideas of our friends, our family, and all of our loved ones, so we can continue to plum the depths of our shared humanity and goodness.
Peace and Love, Jim